My brain hurts :(

[Dreamsinabadger]

I'm so mentally not-there that I posted a blog as a comment on my own page. Then I double-clicked to delete it and ended up deleting one of Kyp's comments. Agh.

Everything in real life is very overwhelming right now. My dad just had cataract surgery, and my mom was just diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis. They both live 1000 miles away. My mom is convinced she's going to die soon.

I have to apportion part of my brain to deal with that, and still save some to think about starting college this fall, remembering all my lyrics, remembering all my kenpo moves for testing, and trying to keep up with friends.

It's really hard.

[Fletch_Talon]

first things first, write down lyrics, so you dont need to worry about forgetting them, keep them in an awesome little book specifically for lyrics

friends will understand if you cant be as frequent with your keeping up, all you need to do is explain whats happening, not only will they understand if you need to be absent, but theyre likely to give you a lot of support

kenpo i guess isnt something you can just write in a book to remember is it, perhaps if you set aside some time each day to practice (and refresh your memory) you can also use that time for relaxation/meditation, take the time to just ponder over everything thats happening in your life, not only should that help relieve stress but if your focussing on other things whilst doing the kenpo then it might help the moves come naturally (ie. without thinking about them)

as usual its hard for me to say anything about schooling since the education systems are so different between here and there, all i can say is, if you have the chance, maybe it would be best to push back college for a short while (assuming they have mid year enrolement or something) because needless to say, with your mum being sick you'll have a lot on your mind, also if you put college back a bit you might be more ikely to get a chance to see your mum, im sure your support would mean a lot to her right now

but enough about me, what were you thinking of doing at college?

[Dreamsinabadger]

Ah, you're so wise Fletch.

The lyrics are written, it's just the memorizing them so I don't mess up on stage that's taking more brainpower. Perhaps I should scribble them on my arm...make it look like I have a tattoo...yesssss...

And putting off school again is not an option I'm going to allow myself. It's been 7 years since I graduated high school, and my parents are so freaking proud of me for *finally* getting back into the swing of things. My mom was so happy she cried, and my dad would have if he wasn't so manly. So I'd like to think that my schooling will help distract them from their problems for a while, and maybe it will distract me too.

Ideally, I'll be majoring in English, minor in Psychology, and get teaching certification to become a High School English teacher. They're in dire need, and I feel that I would be up to the challenge. Plus it's steady work, summers off, benefits, good salary, and I maybe get to inspire some kids.

Thanks Fletch, your words did help quite a bit.

[Fletch_Talon]

it feels good to know i helped a bit, and teaching does sound awesome, especially high school english, my english teacher was pretty cool, well anyway, i hope all goes well for ye and if youll excuse me, this wise fletch is off to sit atop a mountain and meditate until another worthy individual is in need of my help.

ie. ill sit in the bathtub and eat potato salad

[Saotoshi]

Ewww, could you not eat something slightly less gross than potato salad? How can I ask advice of someone who eats potato salad as their "meditate in the bathtub" food?

Dreamy, take it one step at a time and don't allow yourself to be overwhelmed with things and I'm sure you'll pull through just fine. You're strong enough.

[Dreamsinabadger]

Thanks Sao, your advice always helps a lot.

I'm taking everything one day at a time, and doubly appreciating all the good things. I guess I just have to be patient.....

*reaches over and scoops out a handful of potato salad*

[Fletch_Talon]

did you want chocolate sauce and pickles with that?

[Dreamsinabadger]

Psh, you have to ask?!? Are they gherkin, dill, or bread 'n butter?

[Saotoshi]

Excuse me while I go lose my lunch

[Fletch_Talon]

@ dreams - take your pick

@ sao - dont worry you can have some of ours

[Saotoshi]

Noooooooo, thank you!